Unplanned Parenthood

Trouble

Look out Miss Baby Hartzer, Jack is pretty smooth with the ladies...

Ringing in 2007 with the Plague

We had a wonderful New Year's with friends down in Carmel. Lots of delicious food (first and foremost - S'MORES, which OMG, YUM and also deep fried turkey, stuffing, crazy-ass cheeses, etc., as well as the largest bottle of champagne EVER. Which of course we finished. And by "we" I mean "everyone but me." SOB) and played some croquet, which wouldn't be complete until Kevin made his usual transformation from Friendly Nice Kev to MY NAME IS KEVIN AND I WILL WHIP ALL YOUR ASSES AT CROQUET, FOR I SECRETLY PLAY ONLINE CROQUET JUST LIKE I GET UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO PLAY ONLINE SCRABBLE IN ANTICIPATION OF LOW-KEY, FRIENDLY SCRABBLE GAMES JUST SO I CAN BEAT ALL OF YOU BITCHES. HUZZAH! Complete with victory lap.

Julia and I took a nice picture together:

And we all collapsed at 12:01 because we are old and, let's be honest, it was a struggle to make it past 10:30.

And now I have the Plague.

It might just be a chest cold, but there is also the slightest chance that it might actually be the Black Plague and I am dying. Or I've been eating sandpaper and that's why my throat is swollen. Take your pick.

When does that 'second trimester' glow start? I keep expecting to feel good, to feel energetic and...glowy. I've just kind of been either slightly sick or really sick pretty much the last 4 months. Either sinuses or now this new! exciting! chest cold! It's, quite frankly, frustrating. I want to feel good, I want to feel excited about the baby.

Part of it, I know, is that we have so much up in the air. Where are we going to live? What state? How is my husband's job going to work out? What is going to happen with my job? I'm trying very hard to be okay with the uncertainty, to just be okay. But sometimes it's hard, especially when I feel like death-on-toast.